"Finally getting what I deserve..."

That's such as horrible thing to say isn't it? This can bring positive things, I guess. But the one time in my life I have ever heard that said was by my sister. I don't often talk about her because it is very painful. I never knew siblings could be so jealous of each other. I had a sister that was four years older. I looked up to her, I wanted to be just like her. Okay, I guess I idolized her. I didn't know that she was always jealous of ME. I only found this out about a year ago. By this point in my life, my sister had been dead for 8 years. I was estranged from my family for 11 years when she passed. I had just lost 2 grandparents and a sister within 6 months and just had my first child (soon to find out my only possible child and by no fault of my own). She died after battling Cancer for about 10 years (this going on the whole time I was away and I had no clue). When I did find out, I was pregnant. But I was willing to help even without seeing anybody from my immediate family. We had not reconciled yet, but I had recently become close to some cousins again. I offered to have my bone marrow tested as that is what she desperately needed. I was a likely candidate being her sister. However, when she was approached regarding this matter her answer was: "I am finally getting what I deserve now that she's not around". She said she didn't want to "owe" me anything. My falling out with my family was actually with my parents over my now husband not fitting into their "mold". Nothing to do with her. So why was she so angry with me, I didn't get it. I was only 18 when I was thrown out of my house. I wasn't aware of any problems between the two of us. But what a horrible thing to say, isn't it? Anyway...she passed within the year. So...did she finally get what she deserved?
There is a saying, "God don't like ugly". Is that why things went the way they did? To this day I cringe whenever I hear the phrase "finally getting what I deserve". Be careful in what you say, things can be interpreted in many ways.