It wasn't easy having to grow up early and be responsible. I am sure that many people can make that statement too. It never seemed to bother me until now. But lately, I find that I am looking for something. Not sure what, but something. Maybe some excitement? Am I bored? I don't think so. Do I need more spice in my life? Well...I ALWAYS want spice. But I don't think so, I am actually quite..."frisky" if you know what I mean. I don't know what it is exactly but I am definitely feeling "something". I know lately I have been quite depressed. My life is good, don't get me wrong. Very good. But something is still missing. I know that I have been more open to making new friends. Wanting to make my day a little more interesting. Hmmm...is it the job? Am I bored with my work? I don't think that is it either, although being a Hospital Auditor is not the most exciting job in the world. But its a good job. So what is wrong with me? Is there actually ANYTHING wrong with me? Does everyone go through this at one point or another in their life? Is this what is called a "mid-life crisis"? I would really like to know. Funny...the "sexual" part of my life just seems to be getting better and better. Like I have previously said...the "thirties" have been awesome and I can't wait to see what the "forties" brings for me. I even decided I want a small tattoo (in a concealable spot) and maybe a piercing. So I guess what I want to know is...Is it wrong to just want to have fun? Does being responsible have to mean boring? If we can have both without being irresponsible is that acceptable? Because sometimes I just want to have fun....
